I have no lesions on my brain, which means that we do not have definitive evidence for Multiple Sclerosis at this time.  I should feel relieved, and I do, but my doctor said that I could still have it and the lesions just have not shown up.  If I do not have MS, then what do I have wrong with me.  Why did my eye sight go all blurry?  Why did I have Ophthalmic Neuritis?  I guess I do not need to worry so much about something that is gone, but it is not the first time that I have had something like this happen, so I worry.

I also think that worrying about it is not worth it, when there are people in Colorado who are fighting for their lives and will be quadriplegic if they survive.  I could not tear myself away from the programming this weekend about the shooting.  I am devastated for the families. 

I am curious that the media is talking so much about mental illness when they are talking about the shooter.  I just worry that people are going to think that all people who are quiet and odd are going to turn into mass murderers and that being mentally ill means that you are dangerous.  It is too early to say what the mental state of James Holmes was and is.  Especially since he is not talking to authorities.  If he is not communicating, it is hard to know what is going on in his head.  We will not know for months what really happened to this kid.  He obviously had something snap in his brain, but was it a mental illness or was it his personality disorder or was he just wired weird?  We do not know right now.  Let's not scare the world about all people with mental disorders because this one person committed a horrendous crime.