Last night we had a storm hit DC. Before this storm hit
things were quiet, when my roommate went to the store for me earlier that
evening, she even commented on the stillness and humidity. Twenty minutes after
she returned, though, the wind picked up rather quickly and very strongly. I
was pretty sure the tree outside our window was going to snap. Then, this
morning I woke up to the sun shinning with the only evidence of a storm being
the bits of tree debris on the ground.
Life works the same way sometimes. Things seem so calm and
peaceful and than BOOM it all blows up in your face sin a moment. I have never
been very good at handling these boom moments in my life. I am getting better
at it but, for sure, I have some work to do. Since getting down to DC it seems
that one thing after another has hit me. My grandmother’s death, some other
family stuff, the realization that statistics are against me living a full
independent life and my body being uncooperative. It has been very freighting
and part of my came vey close to snapping under the pressure.
Today I went strolling through the National Mall and I ended
up at the Martin Luther King, Jr. Memorial. One of the quotes on the wall was
the following: “The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments
of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and
controversy.” I was convicted by this quote. You see, my faith has always been
what has sustained me. Even before I came to understand God through the lens of
Christianity I still believed that God existed and that alone sustained me
through life’s storms. Yet,
through this particular storm I have been ignoring God, except as a recipient
of my anger and fears.
This evening I read the following verse: “call upon me in
the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify me.” (Psalm 50:15).
I will trust that my God hears my cry even in the midst of this storm. I will
believe that He will deliver me. I will also trust Him with the way He chooses
to deliver me. It may not be what I would want or expect but I know that He is trustworthy
and that I exist not for my own desires but for His glorification alone. I will
stand on my faith in this time of challenge and controversy because my faith is
the ruler by which I want to be measured.
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