Saturday, July 11, 2009
Good morning. This week has been a good one, a very good one. I’m more genuinely happy than I’ve been in a while… I think. Work is going very well. I’m much more comfortable where I am. I am worrying less about where I think I should be. I am enjoying just being at work. It’s also been much easier for me to make decisions. It’s still hard but much easier. For example: A co-intern in my office invited me to Friday night dinner out in Silver Springs (Friday Night Dinner is the beginning of the Jewish Sabbath). I wanted to go, however, I was freaking out about it: what if I miss a really fun evening, what are all my other friends doing, etc. etc. etc. I’m used to freaking out like this. I always do. It’s why I can move so quickly from cheer to depression. Yesterday though, I was much better able to deal with it. I was able to put it in perspective. I told myself, “Look. You are going to do something fun. It’s the right choice, now enjoy it. It is ok.” AND I DID. I had a great time. I didn’t spend it wondering what everyone else was doing or whether I could get back in time to hang out. This is all consequence of my neurotherapy. It’s going really well. Anyway, I hope that everyone is doing well. I’m headed out to a march to the White House! Have a good weekend.